I like this song a lot/Vacation

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these broken wings and learn to fly
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to arise

Blackbird singing in the dead of night
Take these sunken eyes and learn to see
All your life
You were only waiting for this moment to be free

Blackbird fly
Blackbird fly into the line of a dark black night.


I went to San Francisco today. I think I can cross off my random vacation on my list, since I decided to go last night. It was so weird to leave and come home in one day, it made it feel like a dream. But it was an awesome dream, I will do it more often.

09

Some Resolutions for the New Year:

1. Do at least 10 things on my before I die list
2. Read more
3. Get a job in the audio industry
4. Cook. A lot.
5. Travel outside the country

There are more that will develop, but thats it for now. I think its kind of weird how much emphasis everyone puts on the new year, turning over a new leaf and all that jazz. Oh well.

Happy New Year :)

Blinded

I don't know if this will help, or if I even should type this. The only thing I do know is that the inside of me feels like a giant ball of twine getting tighter and tighter with each breath I take. I've been blinded and so have you. Only when I took off the blinders sitting in front of me was something awfully disturbing. I'm sorry things happened the way they did, but then again I'm not. I'm sorry for how you feel but thats how it is. There is a part of me that wants more than anything for things to just go back to the way they were after you get what you need. There is a more rational part of me that realizes that may not happen, and that the scale is definitely not balanced when it came down to it. Fuck that scale, but this is the hardest that my end of the scale has ever fallen. It can't fall though, it has to be a balance or things don't work. Coming to realize that is one of the more painful things I've ever had to endure. Are relationships all just a big game of chase? Once the initial thrill is over is that it? Why are people so inclined to want what they don't have? I'm not going to spend the rest of my life pretending not to have feelings when I do. If my feelings aren't attractive then I don't know what to say. I'm still waiting to wake up to the sunlight of my window, with you in my arms. It's all been a dream. An awful dream. But I wake up and you're there with me to tell me everything will be ok. You're there and I can hold you and kiss you as much as I want to. You're there and I know I'm happy.

Can't Sleep

I don't know how to help you and dearly wish I could. Every time I try you push me away and things are worse. It seems like if there was an average, things are ok but in the overall picture it keeps getting worse and worse. You need so much and are too afraid to ask for it. What else? There are too many things going on in my head to type right now.

Rhino Love

Lovesick rhino escapes from zoo



ADELAIDE, Australia - A lovesick rhino in southern Australia took his keepers on a wild ride Monday.
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An 18-year-old white rhinoceros named Satara eluded his keepers for more than 12 hours after he broke through the fence surrounding his enclosure.
Zoo keepers at the park say he ran way during the night to go on a date with a nearby female rhino.
Little did he know that she already had company for the night.
One zoo keeper suggested Satara needed a cold shower.
"This is boy rivalry. He wants to get to the females first. If we can't let him in with the females, maybe we'll have to give him a cold shower!" zoo keeper Chris West said.
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This is wonderful:

Eric Scott used a hydrogen-peroxide powered jet pack to cross the Royal Gorge near Canon City on Monday, pushing the outer limits of a technology long ago abandoned by the military. According to a spokesperson for Scott, he completed the flight in 21 seconds. The jet pack itself only contained 30-seconds-worth of fuel. The Royal Gorge, cut by the Arkansas River in southern Colorado, is more than 1,100 feet deep. The Royal Gorge Bridge that spans it was the site of a deadly stunt in October 2003 when Dwain Weston, 30, apparently miscalculated a parachute jump while wearing a "wing suit" and hit a railing on the bridge and fell to his death. Scott works for Denver-based Jet P.I., which developed the futuristic-looking jet pack for stunts, promotions and other events around the world for Go Fast Sports & Beverage. Both companies were founded by Troy Widgery.
For more please visit http://www.gofastsports.com/

Distraction

This is yet another distraction from my last few pages of schoolwork. Ever. Well, unless I decide to go to graduate school, but that won't be for a little while. With almost six years of college done I need a break for a bit.

Thanksgiving is only three days away and I can already taste Turkey. Stuffing. Gravy. I don't really know if I want to continue to think about it right now, but bottom line is that its coming up soon. Another thing coming up soon is my graduation, which anyone reading this is invited to. It is Dec. 13th at 9 am, in the convention center. I guess they wanted to make us wake up early one more time before we graduate.

I'm sure I've told you if we've talked recently, but Fletcher and I crossed off number 86 on my list. It was incredible experience, especially when we were calling out coordinates in the frozen section of Safeway. I very much enjoy creating social situations that people are confused by, or don't see everyday. I think everyone would have a lot better of a time in life if they weren't so worried about being normal. Being uncomfortable or in a new situation is when we grow the most as people; something I've come to realize lately. I've also realized lately that I am very fortunate to have the friends and family in my life that I do. Me thanking everyone in a blog really doesn't really do it justice, but thank you.

In the meantime, Lilly is really starting to get lonely. She is constantly trying to stand on me, talk about her personal problems, and even insist that we go downstairs and "play ping pong". I think shes starting to get a little jealous. Sorry girl.

Happy Thanksgiving